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You know how they always say "the heart wants what the heart wants"? I don't know if I have a heart anymore. Over the years of depression, anxiety, abuse, (you name it it's probably happened to me) I don't know if I truly will ever love again.

At this moment right now my mind feels torn. It's looking for answers to I don't know whàt. First it was a stage sadness I had for male friend as he drove away. Normally it's because of someone I've always wanted to be with but never can. Recently I've been wondering if I feel any form of affection towards this cosplayer I've gone on a couple dates with. And now, now it's for a nightmare I had involving a man I think I loved.

Do I love or feel anything for any of these men? Is it all just crippling depression eating away at the remains on my psyche? Am I heartless, or is there still something left?

I don't know what's wrong with my anymore, I just feel so lost and alone now. All I want are answers. I've given up on dating and love because of all the pain I've had to endure, but do I still want to try again? I just feel so helpless. I don't have any hope left for my future.

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Kristin
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Age: 21
Gender: Female
Major: Fashion Design
Arts: Sewing, Cosplay, Modeling, Sketching, Computer Flats

Top 10 Favorite Bands:
1. Rammstein
2. Rob Zombie
3. Voltaire
4. Hellyeah
5. Ghost
6. Carach Angren
7. Twisted Sister
8. Lordi
9. Apocalyptica
10. Iron Maiden

Likes: Animals, Art, Metal, Goth, Punk
Dislikes: Most Females, Idiots, Creeps
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:iconpizzanerd1:
pizzanerd1 Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2016
Did you cosplay at AX last year?
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:iconmomobearlovesyou:
momobearlovesyou Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
No, this will be my first year
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:iconpizzanerd1:
pizzanerd1 Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2016
Any clue what cosplays you'll choose?
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:iconmomobearlovesyou:
momobearlovesyou Featured By Owner May 21, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Yes
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:iconzero-etiquette:
Zero-Etiquette Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2015  Student Filmographer
Where you from?
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:iconmomobearlovesyou:
momobearlovesyou Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
A place that I will not tell 
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:iconzero-etiquette:
Zero-Etiquette Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2015  Student Filmographer
So San Diego.
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:iconmomobearlovesyou:
momobearlovesyou Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
And why does that matter to you?
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Encoder6 Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday :cake::)
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:iconmomobearlovesyou:
momobearlovesyou Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you, sorry I'm so late
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