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Ready to Go by momobearlovesyou Ready to Go :iconmomobearlovesyou:momobearlovesyou 0 0 Peek-A-Boo by momobearlovesyou Peek-A-Boo :iconmomobearlovesyou:momobearlovesyou 0 0 Called a Cab (With My Legs) by momobearlovesyou Called a Cab (With My Legs) :iconmomobearlovesyou:momobearlovesyou 1 0 Fun in the Back by momobearlovesyou Fun in the Back :iconmomobearlovesyou:momobearlovesyou 0 0 Taxi! by momobearlovesyou Taxi! :iconmomobearlovesyou:momobearlovesyou 0 0 Hey, Taxi! by momobearlovesyou Hey, Taxi! :iconmomobearlovesyou:momobearlovesyou 0 0 Happy Day by momobearlovesyou Happy Day :iconmomobearlovesyou:momobearlovesyou 1 0 Not Again by momobearlovesyou Not Again :iconmomobearlovesyou:momobearlovesyou 0 0 Just Relaxing by momobearlovesyou Just Relaxing :iconmomobearlovesyou:momobearlovesyou 0 0 Oh, Hey by momobearlovesyou Oh, Hey :iconmomobearlovesyou:momobearlovesyou 0 0 Oh, You by momobearlovesyou Oh, You :iconmomobearlovesyou:momobearlovesyou 1 0 Looking at the Sky by momobearlovesyou Looking at the Sky :iconmomobearlovesyou:momobearlovesyou 1 1 Hey There by momobearlovesyou Hey There :iconmomobearlovesyou:momobearlovesyou 0 0 Beautiful Day by momobearlovesyou Beautiful Day :iconmomobearlovesyou:momobearlovesyou 0 0 Fighting Spirit by momobearlovesyou Fighting Spirit :iconmomobearlovesyou:momobearlovesyou 1 3 You Looking? by momobearlovesyou You Looking? :iconmomobearlovesyou:momobearlovesyou 1 0


ZOMBEGASUS by AustenMengler ZOMBEGASUS :iconaustenmengler:AustenMengler 720 76 ZOMBICORN by AustenMengler ZOMBICORN :iconaustenmengler:AustenMengler 2,557 260 Arresting by Arctra Arresting :iconarctra:Arctra 3 0 Mystery Machine by Arctra Mystery Machine :iconarctra:Arctra 2 0 Force Choke by Arctra Force Choke :iconarctra:Arctra 2 0 Wild Thang by Arctra Wild Thang :iconarctra:Arctra 2 0 Taking a Ride by Arctra Taking a Ride :iconarctra:Arctra 2 1 Too cool for school by Arctra Too cool for school :iconarctra:Arctra 1 1 Super Mario Bros. Princesses by frozen-winter-prince Super Mario Bros. Princesses :iconfrozen-winter-prince:frozen-winter-prince 138 3 Daydream by Arctra Daydream :iconarctra:Arctra 1 0 Head in the clouds by Arctra Head in the clouds :iconarctra:Arctra 1 0 Minnie Mouse Biker by Arctra Minnie Mouse Biker :iconarctra:Arctra 1 0 Poise by Arctra Poise :iconarctra:Arctra 3 1 Mercedes by Arctra Mercedes :iconarctra:Arctra 2 0 Waiting by Arctra Waiting :iconarctra:Arctra 2 1 Buick by Arctra Buick :iconarctra:Arctra 1 0


You know how they always say "the heart wants what the heart wants"? I don't know if I have a heart anymore. Over the years of depression, anxiety, abuse, (you name it it's probably happened to me) I don't know if I truly will ever love again.

At this moment right now my mind feels torn. It's looking for answers to I don't know whàt. First it was a stage sadness I had for male friend as he drove away. Normally it's because of someone I've always wanted to be with but never can. Recently I've been wondering if I feel any form of affection towards this cosplayer I've gone on a couple dates with. And now, now it's for a nightmare I had involving a man I think I loved.

Do I love or feel anything for any of these men? Is it all just crippling depression eating away at the remains on my psyche? Am I heartless, or is there still something left?

I don't know what's wrong with my anymore, I just feel so lost and alone now. All I want are answers. I've given up on dating and love because of all the pain I've had to endure, but do I still want to try again? I just feel so helpless. I don't have any hope left for my future.


Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Age: 21
Gender: Female
Major: Fashion Design
Arts: Sewing, Cosplay, Modeling, Sketching, Computer Flats

Top 10 Favorite Bands:
1. Rammstein
2. Rob Zombie
3. Voltaire
4. Hellyeah
5. Ghost
6. Carach Angren
7. Twisted Sister
8. Lordi
9. Apocalyptica
10. Iron Maiden

Likes: Animals, Art, Metal, Goth, Punk
Dislikes: Most Females, Idiots, Creeps


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pizzanerd1 Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2016
Did you cosplay at AX last year?
momobearlovesyou Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
No, this will be my first year
pizzanerd1 Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2016
Any clue what cosplays you'll choose?
momobearlovesyou Featured By Owner May 21, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Zero-Etiquette Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2015  Student Filmographer
Where you from?
momobearlovesyou Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
A place that I will not tell 
Zero-Etiquette Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2015  Student Filmographer
So San Diego.
momobearlovesyou Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
And why does that matter to you?
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Encoder6 Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday :cake::)
momobearlovesyou Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you, sorry I'm so late
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